The Rollercoaster ride

I traveled the dungeons without light Smelled the sourness of the air Felt hurt not in skin Spoke not of hope Devoured the coldness Cried silent turbulent rivers Tasted wine not of grapes Seethed joy in pain Dreamt helplessly in despair Accepted there is nowhere but here Wondered, if life was so; what can the afterlife be ? But revelations seek the un-seeking Hope the hopeless Finally from tumult of shaking faith, and ashes of a thousand dreams Rises the phoenix stronger than ever

Today, on the fine start of a saturday morning, I went for the second time for the local Toastmaster's club meeting. Its a good group of people who happened to share the common interest of self improvement in the aspect of public speaking. It usually shares the common routine of designated speakers, sharing the podium first which is then followed by something called "Table topics" where everyone present, including visitors like yours truly are given an impromptu topic and they are required to speak for a minute. For a second timer, today's table topics were quite interesting and thought provoking. It was concerning the various aspects of " Passion ". Passion, the incredible feeling I mostly associate with red color. No reason, its just one of things that plays in the screen of the mind whenever this word comes along. If someone asked you, what is your passion, how long do you think you would take to answer that? Surprisingly most people would actually immers...

" Nothing we ever do is going to matter, but it is very important that we do it" - M.K. Gandhi Mental note: I'm going to remember this. I will need it over the next couple of months!!

Have you ever felt as if you are all alone in the whole of universe and you have so much to say and even if there are many people around you who would like to hear you out, you don’t want to say anything, anything at all. You don’t want to be in that place and there is no other place to go? I don’t know if there is anything worth in this world to be alive for. People say that love can make you feel complete and it gives a meaning to the life we live. I wonder if I am devoid of loving. I think that this state is like a vacuum, it is not that there isn’t anything happening but at the same time the things that are happening don’t even matter. How can there be pain and yet no sight of suffering? How can there be so much wonder and yet so little acceptance? How can there be so much passion and yet so much serenity on the surface? How can there be so much want and yet none of the need? How can there be so much courage and yet fear prevailing? How can there be so many dreams and none of the ...

A few days back, I sat down to fill out a job application after reading about refreshing your resumes from a book. You know the feeling when sometimes you try to elevate from your body and imagine how you would look from up ? It doesn't matter if you don't get what I'm talking about. Well that's what happens to me occasionally. I picture myself how I would be looking from right above me were I able to float, with one of me below and the other of me magically able to float above. I digress, so as I look from above and I see myself, crossed legged, peeping intensely into my computer from my nerdy not-yet-broken specs, frantically referring this book I so artificially was trying to believe it would really help and in trying to say the right things or rather market myself and suddenly I imagine a bubble like that of cartoons clouds above me and I'm thinking. "What if I die ?" " I haven't yet done anything. There is that hike to Himalayas pending oh! a...

A small voice says, just follow your heart and everything will fall into places. A stable job, another degree to fulfill the dream of becoming a corporate honcho, drive that sleek BMW. That darn voice mocks, you're just another brick in the wall !! P.S: I think the love for melodrama & over-thinking is proportional to time in one's life

If you keep looking on the brighter side, you won't see the shadows - Hellen Keller This, now is life. It won't wait for you to stand on your feet. There's a song of exactly that name by Houston Calls which goes by " Life won't wait" That's a good thought to start my day with.