The Rollercoaster ride

The search starts each day with rising up and ends temporarily with going to sleep. I can’t really say that sleeping stops my search, for when I close my eyes another world comes to life. I do things I wouldn’t imagine in life, and I admit it is really satisfying sometimes to do those even if it is in dreams, for its satisfying to see them happening in a lucid world at least. I wonder almost constantly, if the things I think about are worth thinking or I’m just wasting my time; its something over the period of time I think I’ve literally given myself a cap and gown and presented myself a doctorate. Once I saw a comic strip that says “Oh you guys are graduate students, you know all about wasting time”. I couldn’t agree more. I look back and forward everyday and I get the feeling that by doing so I’m missing the present. I try to learn from my past mistakes, relive some moments and gawk at the embarrassing things I’ve gone through, can’t having fully gone past those habits. I plan for th...

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I never realized more than today that I lose touch with reality sometimes. It was an absolutely fine saturday and since we were mistaken about Ramzan's day, we head off to get some things last minute for the EId. As we move to pay for our stuff my eyes wander on this bag they were selling. A tote bag with their brand on it. It looked kind of thick so mostly I thought it was insulated and I was thinking what fiber it was made of, was it recycled and whether it was manufactured here and how much would its cost of making was, printing .. now if it was supposed to be an environmental friendly one they could have done without them no ?? Anyhoo.. that's absolutely not the point . The guy at the counter was absolutely cute (which was the reason I went to that counter in the first place) and while I was mentally un-present at the place he was flirting it seems (which was pointed out to me, once we left the place) I remember him asking are you having plans for tonite while I reached to...

I remember how when as a kid I had short hair, not that its any longer now but I had this peculiar habit of getting it cut always and every time for a different reason. Sometimes it would be because the last time the person might have screwed it up and it needed to be fixed, sometimes because I wanted to look more boyish and the somewhat grown hair would screw that plan and later when I grew up it became a trend to have it cut in the most outrageous way just because I was frustrated with whats happening with me and things aren't going as planned and changing me that's what the hair cut would do. But the reality was nothing ever changed except for weeks after that people would say what the heck happened to your hair and I would have to come up with a different smile each time and pass it by. Thankfully I do realize the "fright and flight" thing I do thinking that it will make things different but unless there are some internal changes they are bound to be the same. Bu...

Here I am going to my school I don't know who is the bigger fool Is it me who wants to learn new things Or people who tell me to look at reality's strings.. I pay and pay for being unaware Lot of cleaning is needed for all my created mess Each day that goes, I count them on Hoping my nightmares and fears remain in their dungeon Being practical and existing in two lives Has been my ancestorial advice Stop looking for the meaning and purposes That is the apparently the general conscience Sigh Sigh !! being mortal is a pain A body with digestive system; and a head With knowing what to know and eyes that are filled with dreams All this make me want to blow my lungs out and scream Believe me freedom is my only treasure A meaningful exciting life is my only pleasure Mom and Dad have always taught In the real world without weapons wars are fought True to their word I have a shield and a sword For heaven's sake but Give me a real challenge, O dear Lord

Shahid Kapoor's I am a big fan He danced awesomely in the song Dhan tan nan Kaminey, that movie was slop shoddy, drab and a gooey mess Anyway the movie industry expects us to be dumb and not play chess He's an absolute chic and sheepishly cute Why is he always clueless about a movie he should refute I always wonder how he has an affair With the leading actress of the movie in which he is paired That's Glamour industry for the mango people I guess But its absolutely time now for them to put their creativity to test Hopefully some day we get a movie to watch Where ogling at the lead people is not the only cache'.

I disagree that fate & destiny has already been decided for us all I disagree that it wants me sometimes suffering through these terrible falls For a long time now I've observed and learnt its tricky ways Even when I'm hopelessly heartbroken it wants with it for me to stay Oh, why should I still trust it Scour it with my beliefs and faith When every moment it tests me and does its best to leave me astray But all my questioning just leaves me more afraid To what should I then hold on it, if even that is left less cared ?