The Rollercoaster ride

Have you ever thought about the two sides of you ? Not like suffering from a mental disorder kind of way but the contradictory or complimentary sides. The Chinese call it the Yin ( accepting side) and Yang ( the giving - passionate side). It seems, to have a beautiful life one has to balance them. In nerd terms balance your right and left brain aspects of your living form. Since, I'm bizarrely interested in everything on planet; face reading happens to be one of them. And supposedly a face with symmetry is hard to find. Rather as we grow up one aspect dominates all the rest and therefore our body and face as an extension becomes asymmetrical. I call Brain vs Heart the yin-yang. No relations. One wins over the other. Either we can call in our yin (heart) and follow a path of unknown journeys and jump in for a roller-coaster ride or call in our yang (brain) and plan out the path focus and micro-control everything. The challenging part is balancing and how do you do that by your choic...

There's something about social media, that I have to make fun of though at present, I have accounts in a dozen of them right now. I have my cynic hat on and I am going through status messages of people. Most of the people are twenty somethings and every one has an outlook on life and saying life is this, you have to have this, that and etc and blah blah blah. I don't know who is more bizarre, newbies in the real world writing "in life" stuff, or people reading them or people like me who are doing both and asking for validation. How long have I lived that I can actually make an opinion about stuff like that. Or how long is long enough ??

Since a last few days I stopped reading on the bus and listening to inane radio stations. Music is the only non-interfering activity that allows us to do what we want to and yet be a part of the whole process. Can't really say that the breath taking beauty of Allegheny and Girard avenues keep me mesmerized on the commute; that I keep aside my fiction book and just lose myself to the moment but though every place in my memory is attached to a song, these places have if I may say so 'thinkings' attached to them. Usually when I cross Girard, I pack all the things I've removed and ponder for a while and today while doing that, I started comparing life to a bus ride. Have you noticed how on bus people do different things ? Some read, some talk on the phone all the while, some listen to music, some just sit there waiting impatiently for their stops while some sit there relaxed enjoying the view or looking into space of memories or their own thoughts. Is really life all that s...

I don't know whether I'm being ungrateful, hypocritical, confused or just plain myself by surrounding myself with all these questions. But where else can I write what I exactly think right? There comes a point in every person's life where one has to choose. And when we are all excited and packing our bags to move to a country 'saat samandar paar' translated 'across the world' we forget to take notice of the small details that become so important once we step into Uncle Sam's land. I'm talking about none other than the motive, the actual one and not the one we write in our statements to make the grad schools believe in us by saying exactly what they want to hear. Since I stepped here, I've been surrounded by the debauchery of all these unanswered questions which are now coming down onto me like unforeseen rains of Mumbai; drenching me in their sheer intensity and urgency leaving me to feel like a naive person setting out in a thunder storm without...

Apart from the bad weather today the thing that’s driving me crazy is the realization that corporate America with the doom it brought about in the world is now pushing people towards extroversion. By far it is now turning its back to the silver lining it provided to people like me about being a “Supporter of Individualism” and making the probability of you surviving a job search or career advancement battle directly proportional to your EQ – Extroversion Quotient. At a recent discussion, with an alumnus it was brought to my notice that the way to make your-self irreplaceable anywhere has always been “Relationships”, now moreover so, it stares at us with all dreary eyes. For someone with limited expertise in this area, my obvious question is how do you do that? There is no definite answer of course and being kind enough she politely said “Connect to them, may be make a little small talk. Ask about their kids, sports and stuff. Give it a personal touch. People want to know all about you...