The Search
The search starts each day with rising up and ends temporarily with going to sleep. I can’t really say that sleeping stops my search, for when I close my eyes another world comes to life. I do things I wouldn’t imagine in life, and I admit it is really satisfying sometimes to do those even if it is in dreams, for its satisfying to see them happening in a lucid world at least. I wonder almost constantly, if the things I think about are worth thinking or I’m just wasting my time; its something over the period of time I think I’ve literally given myself a cap and gown and presented myself a doctorate. Once I saw a comic strip that says “Oh you guys are graduate students, you know all about wasting time”. I couldn’t agree more. I look back and forward everyday and I get the feeling that by doing so I’m missing the present. I try to learn from my past mistakes, relive some moments and gawk at the embarrassing things I’ve gone through, can’t having fully gone past those habits. I plan for th